*Tracy Chapman – Give Me One Reason playing in the background*

Lately I’ve been doing lots of thinking about Vanad’iel, and all my conclusions end up the same.  It just doesn’t hold the same zeal it once did.  Everyone who really mattered is gone, and the people I’ve been doing things with are just another random group of faceless personalities that don’t know me and don’t really want to.

It hasn’t been all bad, I really have enjoyed my two and a half years.  But the more I think back, the more I realize that all the people who really made a difference in the life of this kitty have moved on…and I think it might be time for me to do the same.  Perhaps it’ll just be a long break, perhaps indefinite, I’m not sure yet.  All I know is that…well…there’s no more joy, no more sense of accomplishment, and most importantly no more time to spend all day with a flag up, camping monsters, doing ungodly long missions, heck..even just getting anywhere.  My little girl is such a handful, I’ve got my own health and fitness program, and all the duties of a stay at home mom to deal with.  Not to mention an overly stressed husband to keep happy.

Another thing I’ve been thinking on is this:  When all is over, said and done, what does anything in-game really mean?  When I die and go up to the pearly gates and am asked what good I did in my life, what am I gonna say?  “Well, I had a level 75 white mage” and shrug my shoulders?  It’s all stopped making sense to me.

So, it’s time to part ways from the world for now.  If I know myself, I’ll end up back in Windurst in time.  Not to mention everything and everywhere else I call my home in Vanad’iel.  /farewell!